Sandy's Personal Corner

though Michael may think Nikita knows exactly how he feels about her, he "[hasn't] just said those really simple things that she needs to hear." That emotional distance is clearly going to come to a head soon.

Its Day 63 today. Yes I missed my prince today.

As a #Sagittarius you love a partner who makes you laugh, and one who has something interesting to say about life.

- Mysteries that can be easily figured out entertains a #Sagittarius.

- Even if it hurts, #Sagittarius would do it to get what they want..

- #Sagittarius don't like common ordinary on repeat.

- #Sagittarius don't seem to dwell on regrets much because they use it as lessons.

- #Sagittarius has nuggets of wisdom...

I am a Sagittarian... Love a Sagittarin <3

Today is the last session for the team building workshop... Sad that it is ending as the workshop happens to gave me courage for my low self esteem and confidence. More over i know he would't be here and yet i make the time to dress up a little. Crazy me! Anyway i found this illustration very interesting. I wanna be like Jane.

afraid to face him....

afraid that after opening a conversion he will read my mind and

after that distance away from me...

sigh....

I added him on msn like 5 days ago? If I remembered correctly. But the truth is I have not even pluck up the courage to talk to him. Its not like i have to face him to talk right you might ask. But I juz can't seem to do it. SIGH.

Why Sand? Why are you so timid. Its not like you are webcaming with him? Oh GoD!

Early in the morning Sarah was reprimanded by the boss. Things which are not entirely her fault was push to her and wrongfully accused. Sigh. I feel sad. Because I can feel her. I have been told off by her too. I cried and cried and then that day I had lunch alone. You just needed to get the frustration out. Not everyone can feel what we have been thru. Its only the people who went thru it will feel the pain and the sadness. I didn't know if it was me who came up with the complicated design or am I the one who is causing the problem...

If i am the cause of problem then I should leave for the sake of the IT people in MMI. I do not want to cause any problem for them. They worked hard. I should be the one leaving cos I am not specialize in web design. sigh. I don't know. All I know now is to find a job and leave here when the times come.

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams".

This quote by Dr Seuss is so true

Happy 2012 My Little Prince...
To my little prince somewhere out there

I hope we meet soon 

From your little princess out here...

Yes, it is. It has been very long again since i last post on my blog. I found a job now and had been working for the past 3 months in this fucking company as an in-house designer. Why you i seem so valgur? Cos its the environment that pushes me this way.

First of all, there is no boss from heaven, but i do not want someone who is like "That Thing" too. I totally hate it! I feel so sick begin here and had no intension to stay anymore. Here i am sitting down here and waiting for the day to pass while i touch on boring assignment. Well actually the job scope here is fine except for a little boring. But the truth is i cannot stand "The Thing". She is so bloody fake! I wanna vomit blood juz by talking to her.I wanna leave :'(

Okay, I know its been to long since i had last post. Mainly what i have done after convocation is slack lol. I am taking a break and looking for a permanent job very slowly. I am enjoying the slow pace of life. I slept at 0200 hours and wake up at 10 or 1am the next day.

Now its is the time of the year again. Singtel Singapore Grand Prix. Its racing weekend again! This year due to the financial crisis to me. I have not been able to attend all the 3 day race. Its lucky that I have a ticket to the first day. Nevertheless, I am happy and contended. Over the next 3 days i have been at home catching up on all the news and happening on the track on TV. So here are some of the memorial stuff that has been said on the net i find it so funny!

From Jake Humphrey Blog:

"Well, firstly, my hotel room. It had one of those showers that's so powerful it feels like it's stripping off your skin while washing off the ingrained sweat that 12 hours in the Singapore sauna leaves behind."

:2pm - get to the track, feeling and looking like I'd crossed the Sahara before going for a fully clothed swim. Not attractive!"

"2pm-7pm - Film stuff in the paddock, write scripts, have meetings, iron my shirt on an ironing board that was honestly the size of a Tic-Tac. The big one couldn't fit in the freight, apparently. "

As i type away. It is also the start of another new month. August. It has been 3 month since i return from my Aussie trip. Exactly 1 month since i submitted my last assignment in university. Roughly 2 week since we ended our graduation show DIP in Orchard Central.

Have been on the same route again. Hunting for a new job. A new beginning for me and the (to me at least for now.) the endless debts. I wanted to get a new job fast cos i have been unable to pay back what i have been owning cynthia. But i have been asking myself if i were vut out to be a designer after all. I guess when we are about to step into the working world agian we start to doubt ourselves also.

While my close friend just came back from (according to her the dream trip of hers) her euro trip. I sat in front of my notebook trying and struggling to find a job and pay off my debts. While some even plan to get married i just started working. Most of my friends are working and travelling.... While me, is stuck in here with all my debts and nags from family cos of the unable to find a job. And this is only the 2nd week.

sighhhh.... I will have my days. I will have my days where i can go to euro and live there for a long long long time. I will have my days where i will met my other half. And thats when my life will be complete. I will, and i want to believe myself for that. IT WILL HAPPEN!

So in last than 24 hour i will be going home. The pancake party which only in the end four person turn up. Well at least it marks the end of our melbourne journey. Neverthless, we are happy. My classmate misses home. Me, nah i dont really miss it i love the weather here (cos its winter now, and Singapore is hot as hell). I love the fact that i can explore things which is unfamiliar to me and i love the way the country side is. That is something you cant find it in Singapore. I love the fact that i dont have so much to think while in here and i dont wish to go back. I wanna get my mum here and we can live here happily ever after with my future prince

I dont wanna go home. I wanna be free and in other place

I don not understand why someone age like her can act this way in front of so many people. I dont wanna understand and i am disgrace by it.

Yes. I fell in love, not with a human begin but with the nice and cool weather in Melbourne. I love it so much i dont feel like going home. For, maybe its only 2 weeks. It makes me dont miss home even more.

For, when i am here i dont get lost in my day dream. I dont have to think about the wooden block and the materalistic. I found my own live here. I dont have to see the post in fb about you and her drinking or having dinner some where. I can live in my own world in another beautiful city without even thinking about you. I dont think you are worth my time waiting. I believe someone is waiting for me somewhere someplace. Please let me forget you. Please!